radiantshadow (radiantshadow) wrote,

semi random thoughts

at first i wanted to write something but had no idea what to write. I thought that empty would be a good word to describe me, but no, maybe lost would be better...

i have a friend who says that i never write about things in my journal directly head on. that i always dance around the issue. i dont, well i do know why that was said, but i dunno, its just how i write.

i am sitting here listening to the soundtrack to "Spy Game", monitoring go games, wondering where i can go to read / write in my journal(there are not alot of options in yuma and i dont like doing either one of those activities in my barracks room).

its not as much a factor of being bored as of being exhausted ( ~10 mile bike ride in the desert today ), and just not knowing what to do with myself.

within the first 6 months of me being in the Marine Corps, a Sgt once said to me, I may one day get killed doing this job, but i wont just die, ya gonna have to kill me. And i thought, thats a real good way to look at it...

"Dreams mean work" ... two thoughts (sometimes i think i am losing my mind, how can i have multiple thoughts all at the same time... sometimes it is paralyzing ) but two thoughts on that, was it all a dream ? and i suppose i should get to work...
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