odd that it was by mutual consent, yet we were both so sad as i stepped away from our final embrace
we both admitted to being sad, but relieved.
now i am just sad.
but a certain peace exists, an uneasy nervous peace.
three years we spent with each other, plans for marriage were in the air.
what now ?
how do i go about filling the void that now exist in my heart ?
i have lost what is perhaps one of the most beautiful things that God has given me in this life:
from head to toe, body and soul.
your soft beautiful skin.
your soft beautiful voice.
that ever changing hair.
your simple ways.
you were like a curious kitten exploring your world.
a wonderful christian soul.
someone who in her untrusting nature, found that she could trust me.
someone who i was able to relax with.
someone whom i called, friend.
I loved you. I still do. I probably always will in some form or fashion.
the time, the memories, the joy, the growth.
All because both of us, so damn stubborn, unwilling to change.